Psalm 139

Tomorrow is the big day....our results will be revealed. I've been anxiously and nervously awaiting to find out if this cycle worked or not. I've been extremely emotional the past couple days and I know tomorrow will prove no different. I have been looking for words of comfort today...to help me during this waiting period. I've been listening to some very uplifting music (Cedar's Gray...wonderful CD!) and then I came across an old email that my dad sent me. It's the whole bible on one page. You can click on any and every book/chapter of the bible and there pops up the coordinating verse. (isn't technology wonderful???) I was looking through Psalms and came across this....it really helped lift my spirits and remind me who is in charge here. I'm thankful that I have my faith to cling to during this time...without it I would be completely lost.

Read and enjoy.

Psalm 139

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths,you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

Thank you to all who have been (and continue to) praying for Jason and I. I know we have been lifted up by so many. Regardless of the outcome tomorrow I have to remember there is a master plan here. If I am pregnant, I pray that I don't forget to praise God for our good fortune. And if I'm not pregnant this cycle...then I pray I will not be angry at God and trust his timing.
I have found myself today not able to complete a prayer....when I've talked to God today it has been very sporadic....very choppy....can't complete a thought. A dear friend reminded me today that there are so many people praying for us...and that God knows my heart, I don't have to worry about stringing together a complete thought. Thank you Jenny. :)